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I found this today: (I wrote this this last Thanksgivin's day)

Well, today sucked. I woke this morning ready to eat a lot! You know, being Thanksgiving and all. Lunch was going to be good. And it was too... corn, mashed potatoes, turkey... all the good Thanksgiving stuff. It was fun just getting all the food ready. We had so many things that needed to be cooked in the oven, we had to play guess and check to see when things would get done. Luckily, they all were cooked at the same temp, so that made it easier on all of us. After we had all eaten, my sister was trying to figure out what we would all do. She was wondering if Blockbuster was open. I told her that I would go look. So I came up into my room to get on my internet to look. No such luck. Didn't find out if it was open or not. Oh well. I was feeling a little tired so I got Blizzard of his cage so that I could take a nap with him. (You have to understand that Blizzard was not feeling so well; he was on the verge of death for the last few days) I laid on my bed and laid him down on my arm so that he could get some body heat from me. Before I know it, I started to fall asleep. The only thing that was keeping me from not going into a deep sleep was Blizzard's heavy breathing. A few minutes later, I woke up and didn't hear him breathing anymore. I moved him, and he started again. That was good. Not thinking anything of it, I positioned him back and just laid there to see if it would happen again. Sure enough, it did. But this time moving him did not bring back his breathing; it didn't fix anything. That was the last breath he would ever take. I tried to bring him back... I really did. I was pumping at his little heart, and would breath into his nose... in and out. But he never came back to me... 

Just reading this again is making me cry. It has been over 3 months and I still cry because I miss him so much. He meant so much to me. It is like losing a child. 

I can't wait for the day that it is my turn and I will be able to hold him once more...

well, mom decided to scare me today when i was vacuuming... she said i left the ground... by about 4 inched... but i don't believe it..
DH (desperate housewives) was really good today... did any one else watch it???
prom was last night/morning... i am sooo tired!! we went to afterprom too, and that was really fun, even though i didn't win anything :(... fichman was there, so that was cool. dess didn't go, so i am going to bug him about it tomorrow!

wow, i hate mornings. i didn't post yesterday b/c i was too busy playing the new sims game that is out. i finally went to bed at 11, and woke up at 6:30. man, i HATE school! school needs to start later in the day.
also, i hate WEDNESDAYS! we have "block" day at my school today (hours 1, 3, 5, 7 ~ each class is about 1.5 hours long! it sucks)
My butt still hurts from monday. god, i never should have taken a few months off from riding. remind me to NEVER do that again!
well, i need to go now. have fun everyone

well, i got to go soon to do my math hw (bore!!!), but i just thought that i would tell everyone that i didn't fall off today!!! wow... is my butt sore!! all that posting! i didn't jump yet, but i will soon!!

man, this is my first one. thanks lisa, you got me into this... i don't know if i will keep up with it or not. i don't know how much time i will have to do this... but yah.
man, tomorrow, i am starting horseback riding lessons again!! it is going to be so much fun! but, i would rather have my rents just lease a horse out there, so i can just ride him whenever i want... that is what i really want for x-mas, but i would never tell them b/c they wont get that for me anyway, so y bother. well, i am tired, so i am going to go get ready for bed. night